Friday, December 12, 2014

Stress

Have you ever had a day where the expectations people put on you make you feel like you're actually having some kind of huge stress applied to your body?

I feel like that today.

I don't want to leave this negative thought here with no rebuke to it...which means I'll leave this too. A reminder that we can handle the things in our life if only we carry them well, which means having the mental fortitude to recognize that there are things we cannot change but have to accept. And that mental exercise is what I'm going to spend the rest of the day practicing.




Wednesday, December 10, 2014

Disappointment

I've been preparing a post about my weekend that I'm going to put up sometime soon, but yesterday something happened that I'm not sure I've experienced.

Someone ordered a cake from me for a baby shower. I made the cake (half and half yellow and chocolate, bavarian filling, whipped cream icing)...and I hated it. I hated the shape, the color, the decorating, everything. To me, it looked atrocious. Before the shower I told the woman that she only had to pay me for materials because I didn't feel it met my own standards (she paid me more than that, but I don't feel like I deserved it).

I'm still beating myself up about it. (It's so bad that you don't even get a picture. Not for a looooong time.)

Now...I was really busy this weekend, and then Monday night was Cam's work party, so I was rushed. And the frustration has been really hard for me to get over.

I've just never felt like I failed this badly at a commissioned item before. I mean...the cake was terrible. But I also fulfilled two cookie orders this weekend that looked great. And all I can think about is that stupid effing cake! I put so much time and effort into it...it tasted great, but the presentation was a total dud (to me).

I realize it's a stupid thing to get down about, but there you have it. Not everything I bake or craft looks great. And I think I'm going to limit the "commissioned" items for a while.

And for every person who asks why I don't own a bakery...this is why. The expectations and stress are what keep it a hobby.

But here are some cookies that look cool, so I guess I've got that going for me:

Made as a retirement gift for someone my mom works with (who works for Caterpillar).


Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Sneak peek...

I wanted to give you a quick look at what I'm working on at the moment...it's an "in progress" shot that will be part of a larger tutorial next week:


Any guesses?!?